Wednesday, February 4, 2009

He's home!

I know you didn't know my dear husband was out of town. I decided not to post such information. I get scared enough as it is, I sure didn't want to advertise the information.

Yes, you read correctly, I get scared. Before we had children, and well, even after Samuel was born, I would stay with a friend of mine when Stephen was gone overnight. When we moved from that town I didn't have anyone to stay with, so I would just sit up and watch tv all night. Fear kept me awake.
Isn't that silly? Well, it didn't seem so at the time, but when I look back on it now it seems silly. That is until I have to be without a manly-man in the house. I'm telling you what, I hear every noise, sound, creak, croak. It's awful.
Sunday night (the first night) while I was lying AWAKE in my bed I was praying and telling God that I knew He didn't want me to be fearful and that I knew there were many verses in the Bible that told of His being with me at nighttime. I just couldn't think of any. I couldn't recall any verse!! Do you know why? Yes, you guessed it, because I had not ever chosen to memorize any. So, I am now memorizing 3 verses. My favorite being Psalm 4:8 I will lie down and sleep in peace for you alone, O Lord make me dwell in safety.
My man will be leaving in just a couple of weeks for another trip and I plan to have these verses memorized and ready to face the night with me!
Isn't it wonderful that we don't have to face those scary nights alone. I'm so glad to have a God that is my Protector.


hsmomma5 said...

I struggle with fear also. I usually fall asleep with the tv on if Clayton is gone! (Which, thankfully, is very rare!)

Trish said...

I do the same thing. Not to add to your fear, but I am always afraid the lights are going to go out while Roger is gone. So, I sleep w/ the flashlight, the phone, and my cell phone just in case....sad I know. I need to memorize those verses too!

Lindsey Watson said...

wow....what would you do if you were single, like me, and slept alone EVERY night? :)

Sisters said...

Lindsey- I'm pretty sure I would have a prescription for ambien or lunesta or maybe both!! I would take some tylenol pm if I didn't have kids. I'm afraid I wouldn't wake up if they needed me.

Anonymous said...

Julie, you are afraid for naught.
My grandson Sam will beat the living daylights out of anyone who dares come into your home without an invitation. He is big and bad and a very strong lad.

Sisters said...

I am in your shoes now but have no babies, so I am drugging up for the night!

Green Acres said...

I have never like staying by myself either. When we lived in NJ..Big D would plow snow and would be gone at night - sometimes a couple of nights in a row. I eventually got used to it..but at first I was very fearful of staying alone. Having dogs in the house gives me a little comfort!

I have stayed by myself here in the boonies when Big D went to work in LA..and I wasn't fearful at all. Probably the first time ever, I guess the older I get the less I worry about it. Although I still don't like staying home without him esp. at night. I do know I could handle it now!

Next time if you're scared - just call me! I'd be glad to join you for a sleepover - I'll even bring a couple of kids with me! LOL

Melissa Southerland said...

I sure am glad to know that I'm not the only one who is scared when their husband is out of town. I usually curl up on the couch and watch t.v. until 3 or 4 in the morning when I cannot hold my eyes open any longer. But, I stay on the couch so that I will be the first to know if someone breaks, huh? I need to learn the verse you are learning, so do share them with me :)

Mrs Tiab said...

When my husband travels, I also stay up all night watching TV. A couple of years ago he did a part-time overseas assignment (3 weeks home, 3 weeks gone) for an entire year. I was a walking zombie:) We do not have any children and had only a cat as a pet-which hears many things humans don't hear-freaky at times:) We live in the country and our neighbors are not close. Now when he travels, it is usually one week at a time. Thank you, Lord! I will take your advice and begin memorizing Bible verses too. I will pray for you!
Thanks for sharing.

Matt and Jolee said...

It helps to see that there are many of us out there who are in the same boat! Matt travels A LOT, and yes... I'm still scared every single night that he is gone. I've learned that with one tylenol pm, I can still manage the kids when I need to but it helps me fall back asleep when I wake up. I think it's psychological for me more than anything... However, when he is gone for long periods of time I don't take anything for fear of getting hooked. I like to keep the cell phone by my bed as well.