Monday, June 20, 2011

As Time Goes By

My kids are growing up. I knew it would happen, but did it have to happen so fast?

I can't really believe I wrote those words! I remember the times it was so difficult to go anywhere because of my four kids under six, or my three kids under three. Oh, those were the days!

But these days are different and maybe better. But different for sure. Anna has spent the last few days in Fort Smith with some of the grandparents. I had trouble the first couple of days. It was like part of me was missing. No one was needing me. She is pretty independent, she can make her own breakfast and lunch but she still needs me for some things. And I missed being needed.

Today Samuel left for church camp. It's the first time he's gone without a parent. He can't have a phone or ipod. So, no texting, status updates, or calls. I can hardly stand it. In fact, when he left this morning at 6:15 I cried. I layed in my bed and cried. And then I texted my mom. Because no matter what, she can make it better and she did. I just hate that I can't be there for Samuel if he needs me this week. Good grief! The boy is 13 and has gone on many trips without me, you would think I'd handle this better. But no. I'm blaming the crying on the time of day. I'm never up at 5:45 so I'm sure the lack of sleep had something to do with my emotions. That's what I'm going to believe anyway! HA!

David & Daniel have loved today. They have loved it just being the two of them. They had to go to the hospital with Stephen today and wait with him for a couple of hours during a church member's surgery. We then went to Walmart and came home. They were so enjoying being the only kids they didn't care where they were or what they were doing. We went swimming at the local pool tonight. It wasn't officially open, but we went and swam and played for a couple of hours. It was a special time that we all needed.

Time does move quickly. Kids grow up so fast. I'm thankful for the opportunity to spend special time with my children this summer. I hope they remember these days. Just in case they don't I'll be sure to remind them! HA!