Wednesday, December 8, 2010

The After Picture

I lost it. It has been one of those days. It started off fine. I read my Bible. I had a chocolate doughnut for breakfast. My hair looked good. Ran a few errands.

And then came home and lost it. With my kids. It was awful.

I will admit that I yell. They are used to that. But today was different. I really yelled today.

I called Stephen to confess. Not that a man can forgive me of my sins, but they are his kids too and I thought he needed to know how his kids were treated.

I prayed and asked God to forgive me. I am assured by His Word that I'm forgiven. Now, I must go to my children and ask their forgiveness. It won't be the first time and I'm sure it won't be the last.

I could have written to you today about how great our morning went and how we were all smiles, and we had such a good time. But, I get tired of reading that on all the blogs I read. Some times I just want to read that sometimes they failed on the "mother front" . Sometimes I would like to see the look on the kids and dads faces AFTER the picture was taken.

So, today I gave you the After picture of us. It isn't pretty, but its real.

I hope I'm not the only one with an after picture like this one!



Amanda M. said...

You are NOT the only mother who just loses it sometimes and yells a lot louder than they ever wanted to or thought they would. I have done this and the only thing as bad as the way the yelling makes my kiddos feel is the self-loathing I feel after.
I will send up a prayer for you today, Julie. It happens to all of us and even though we KNOW the good outweighs the bad, it sure doesn't feel like it at the moment. :(